Circles in life.

I've often heard it said that there aren't circles in life, but more spirals, where you come back around to where you were, but on a new level.

I finally cleaned my apartment top-to-bottom, and it was interesting to finally come to the last boxes that I hadn't opened in years, the ones that I kept in a small pile on my back indoor porch.

The very last one had some binders with linguistics stuff from college that I had tucked away, that I had thought years ago that I might get rid of, but then realized that they might be useful some day, somehow, in a way that I couldn't quite put my finger on.

And, interestingly enough, they are now, since recently I've been realizing that the ancient language I'm studying could benefit from a better form of education like I had in my undergraduate language classes.

And, there was a binder with this one weird ancient religion I once took a class on during my master's, where I saved all the material because I felt that there was something there, compared to some other stuff where it was clear that I could dispose of it.

And, interestingly enough, I now realize that there might be something interesting tucked away in that religion, about conceptualization of revelation, and it's actually tied into stuff that I've been thinking about now for a number of years, but after I had had that class, and certainly not during the time that I was taking it.

I also found a few small notebooks, and this list of when I started an ultimately successful secret unionization drive, where I was like "Fuck this" and started gaming out numbers for a potential bargaining unit and had done initial recon on who was tucked away where, organizationally. It was the very last thing I looked at, and it was just so intense and driven and "Fuck you" fuck-with-the-system in a way that I haven't been for a few years now, and it was interesting to see this glimpse of my past self, and not necessarily in a way that I disliked it, in fact I admired it and I tucked the notebook away in my files, just like a friend told me I definitely should, but at the same time I've been kind of firmly getting away from that in what I've been getting into of late, and I don't really feel a need now to go back into that headspace and just that sheer drive that I see in it. It's just the past.