Saturday, November 15, 2025

Two occurrences at a birthday party…

…for the one (gay) (Brazilian) (STEM post-doc) who I know from around town:

1) When people are out drinking on the porch, a (Brazilian) friend of his talks about coming home from the clubs in Fortaleza when the sun is coming up, and one of his friends was leaning out the window and puking, and this one (older) (poor) woman was walking by on the sidewalk to go to work in the early morning – “the working class of the working class,” he was like – and she stopped when the bus stopped and she took his friend’s face in her hands and she stroked it and she was like, “It’s okay, it’s okay, we’ve all been there, honey.”

2) Towards the end of the night when everyone was leaving, a (Chinese from China) (beginning her PhD in the social sciences) student asked the birthday celebrant what his birthday wishes were, and when he started laughing and smiling lasciviously, she immediately corrected herself and was like, “I mean, what are your PG-13 wishes?”

Friday, November 14, 2025

Addendum.

A while ago, I gave this book about regional cultures across time to the children of my one (half Sudanese) (half British) friend (the sister of the brother-sister pair), since it’s about the part of the world that she lived in for a while.

And, her kids like it, especially the big pictures of different cultures.

“Is it for real life?”, she told me they ask her, besides their being very amazed at the fact that she used to live there.

Thursday, November 13, 2025

On second-language acquisition.

At a recent conference that I attended and presented at, this incidental point made by a specialist in second-language acquisition really hit home for me:

Morphemes that have a high functional load – e.g. plural endings, signalling of the person on a verb – are often super-short and subject to phonetic reduction, which makes them even harder for non-native speakers to catch, despite their great importance.

However, that said, they are often contextually cued and grammatically redundant – like when the plural ending of a noun is also reflected on the verb – and so a listener can often pick them up by other means.

It makes sense when you say it, but it’s something that I had never thought about before, and it really went a long way towards explaining how I’ve been processing or failing to process the Duolingo listening exercises on the one language that I’m now studying for potential EU-country dual citizenship purposes, where certain important endings get swallowed up like the noun plural, but I pick them up when they’re repeated on the verb and so everything ends up being okay.

It also makes you realize that while something like Duolingo is nice, it just drops sentences on you without any real contextual cues besides knowing the grammatical theme of the unit that you’re working on, unlike real life or even a classroom-set situation where you do stuff like mimic interactions at a restaurant or a train station and you have a lot more vocab cues and whatnot.

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

More on lingering healthcare collapse.

Like a month ago, I was on a trip and consulted an archive for a potential writing project, and it happened to be held in a hospital.

On the way in when I was turning off the main road, they had a big sign about hiring nursing staff for all shifts, so when I was waiting at reception for the archivist to come and meet me and take me down to the archives, I started chit-chatting with the receptionist, and I asked her about that sign.

And, she said that basically they were trying to wean themselves off of staffing services, which had swallowed up the sector because of COVID emergency money when the federal government flooded everywhere with money so that they could make sure that they were properly staffed.

Basically, as everyone has known for a while now, people left site-based full-time jobs and entered traveling services in order to increase wages, and people just aren't taking wage reductions and dropping back to full-time work based out of one institution. So, it's like a rut that's good for the individuals, but bad for the workplaces and patients, with no clear end in sight.

What gets me is that this trend was clear going back 2-3 years ago, and it's STILL HAPPENING.

It's like everything is stuck in time, and huge problems just aren't getting solved in that sector.

Just a lingering collapse, all tied into the pandemic and afterwards.

Sigh. 

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

Addendum.

The other interesting thing about my work this year is that all of my various projects correct or build / noticeably improve on the work of a broad swath of living major scholars, and a huge chunk of the dead ones.

Like, they identified a big issue but couldn’t solve it, and I come in and adduce new evidence and my answer is so right and obvious in retrospect that you have to ask why people didn’t notice it earlier.

What a great way to make friends!

It really makes you realize how scholars have to talk big about their own projects, but so often they’re shifting little piles of stuff around in non-threatening ways, or at best they’ve identified something that’s not been worked on and so it *looks* huge and new and important, but it really is separate from what everyone else does and so people can praise it to high heavens but otherwise just go about their business, because when you really get down to it, it doesn’t really change anything that anybody does.

In comparison, something that goes after a misguided assumption that everyone is working with is truly important, but even if the reason that they made that assumption is understandable and you present your work as modestly and unassumingly as possible, you’re still going to threaten the heck out of some people and they’ll batten down and start to resent you.

Like, one major scholar who does good work and who runs a research center in a major country is known to be decently nice and to share time and work, which he did with me when he sent me some of his articles, but as soon as I noticed something that I was working on that clearly corrected some stuff he did and I respectfully floated it his way – I mean, he was writing a legacy-summing book and he was incorporating some of this wrong stuff as a side-point, and I know that **I** would want that information if I was writing any book, let alone that type of one! – he immediately got stern and coldly respectful by email, and my entire sense was that he liked being approached and consulted as a source of wisdom, but he did not like being challenged in any substantial way.

(Fine, it's your book, have it be wrong in perpetuity if you want it that way. That's your choice, mister!) 

After that, I made sure to adjust my verbiage to thank him profusely in some article acknowledgement sections, and I also made sure to **not** send his way any notice at all of an article where I build on his work and come to an obvious-in-retrospect solution that corrects some proposed readings of his.

What nonsense, to reduce the flow of scholarly conversation because of adverse personal reactions.

I also recently had to look up an article on the CV of the one professor who got the job that I applied for after my first major discovery. Immaculate CV with great previous institutional affiliations and great publication venues and many many publications, but I’ve never seen anything that they did that truly made decisive progress. It’s like the multiple rounds of vetting produced someone predictable and status quo who flatters the stasis of a field but is unable to push it.

Academia really is just a fundamentally stupid profession...  It's like so many times, you can't talk about anything that matters.

Monday, November 10, 2025

My year to "run up the score"?

I'm increasingly thinking that this coming year I just need to vomit out all of this dense, super-draining academic writing that has been mounting up.

I think a few people might be starting to notice my ideas, so I need to "run up the score" now while a super lot of people still aren't looking.

Also, I feel increasingly chained to the area where I live, and the big sticking point is that that type of writing demands access to a top-notch academic library like I have now.

So, it seems like the best time to get it off my plate and out of my system, and free me up mobility-wise in case anything viable and appealing comes across my radar. 

Sunday, November 9, 2025

Bathroom candle.

Years ago someone gave me a tasteful bathroom candle in a present exchange -- I can't remember when, or why -- and all these years it's sat on my toilet, with its white wax and nice scent and this wick that looks like a broken popsicle stick, but somehow tasteful.

But, I never really lit it up.

Then, one day like a month ago, I took a nasty shit before breakfast, and since I have a small apartment, I decided to light it up to mask the scent so I could eat my breakfast in peace, without smelling the aftereffects of my own shit.

And, it worked like a charm!

Now, I do it it all the time..

I have also started to wonder, why I kept smelling my own shit, for all those years. 

Habit, I suppose.