man i'm sore.

i had the world's longest day the other day - up at 6:45am, long day of work, hit the gym for 1.5 hours late afternoon as a treat, then to the sex documentary, though because the location is a bit hard to get to by public transportation, i had to walk 25min. there and back (it's actually faster than walking to a bus or subway stop, waiting, and then taking it in to transfer to where i need to go).

(the sex doc was about the porn industry, a very mixed documentary... conversation after was interesting b/c a feminist pornographer was there who added insights like how sex in porn is in highly unnatural positions so it's easier to film, and so it's that much harder for the actors to do, and that most mainstream porn actors do escorting on the side since it's higher paid and actually safer, since although it's different clients, they can use protection.)

i slept like 9 hours that night, and was sore and a space cadet all the next day. somehow i managed to get a lot of reading done, but i wasn't in the right headspace to talk to people when i met a worker from the local community-organizing group to go door-to-door in an apartment building down the block from me...

going door-to-door in that building was tough, too - i didn't realize it, but it was a lot of low-income and drug rehab housing, so people would open up their doors and they would be out of their heads and incoherent, or have these wild, empty eyes, and when you looked in the door, it was a 10x10 room with no paint and a mattress on the floor...

beforehand i stopped in through a community meeting in that apartment building that the community organizer was speaking at, and one lady there said she had been homeless and had slept in the snow, and no-one should have to go through that.

another guy at a door was a vet who lives on $800/month, and says he doesn't go to soup kitchens as much as he should, but there's so many fights and violence in the dining rooms that he doesn't want to deal with.