From
Deborah Feldman’s Unorthodox: The
Scandalous Rejection of My Hasidic Roots (2012; pp. 168-171):
When I
open my eyes in the morning, the sun is shining weakly through the window
blinds and the air conditioner is whirring sluggishly against the humid August
air...
[My
husband] Eli dresses quickly and grabs his tefillin just as his father knocks
on the door... It’s time for morning
prayers...
In a
minute [my aunt] Chaya is here with the electric razor [to shave my head in
accordance with community rituals]...
I hear
footsteps in the hall. I think it’s Eli,
but it’s my mother-in-law, lips pursed, hands folded in front of her, glancing
away from the peephole...
I offer
Eli’s mother coffee, tea, any excuse to use my new dishes, and when she
politely refuses, I insist on arranging chocolates prettily on a silver dish.
“So
how’d it go?” she asks.
I smile
but I’m politely confused... I murmur
vaguely and indistinctly, “Oh, fine,” and wave away her question like an
annoying fly...
My
mother-in-law’s face draws tighter and she takes her hands off the
tablecloth. “My husband tells me it
wasn’t finished.”
I’m
speechless...
The door
opens before I can say anything, and Eli and his father are at the door. My mother-in-law stands up and reaches
forward to air-kiss me good-bye. I don’t
lean in toward her, and she leaves with her husband, shutting the door behind
her. My eyes are on Eli, but his eyes
are downcast...
“What
happened?” I ask Eli. “What did you tell
your father?”
He
cringes at the urgency in my tone. “I
didn’t tell him anything; he asked me!” he protests quickly...
I’m
panicking now, thinking of the possibilities... of the way gossip travels like
lighting in my world...
. . .
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