Friday, June 28, 2013

Priests in Love (3 of 11): Terms of Endearment.



From Jane Anderson’s “Priest in Love: Roman Catholic Clergy and Their Intimate Friendships” (a book of interviews with Australian priests) (p. 93):

Fr. Lucas and Sr. Johanna often had coffee together.  He shared with her ideas for sermons and plans for the church, while she discussed her own ministry and thoughts about life and the church...

But after many, many months, Fr. Lucas realized that he was becoming attracted to Johanna in ways that troubled him.  They had started embracing each other and while holding and being held by her was a beautiful experience, he was fearful of the desire that seemed to be welling up inside him.  Eventually, he decided that he needed to talk openly and honestly with Johanna.  So one Sunday afternoon they went for a drive.  Away out in the bush they found a quiet spot where they could talk about their feelings for each other.

“We also talked about the risk of our sexual attraction for each other.  So I suggested the way to beat the problem was to deal with the attraction while we were still in control.  We came to a decision that embracing, touching, intimacy, nakedness, all this was acceptable, but under no circumstance was there to be sexual intercourse.

“Even as I write this, I wonder, did this really happen?  What on earth did I think I was trying to do?  I can answer that latter part quite truthfully:  I was trying to survive.”

. . .

(They never had sex; eventually, Sr. Johanna got an assignment overseas, and left.)

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